4.12.98

ooh, it is bunny day! i like bunnies, and i don't like to call them rabbits or hares. 'bunny' sounds so much more appropriate, as the little creatures are awfully cute. in honor of easter (and the fact that it's noon and i'm not hungry enough to go eat yet), i present to you this bunny story!

one evening over the summer, dave and i decided to go to a carnival that was going on in our hometown of south haven (a coastal town that they forgot to bomb). before you laugh at this, please remember that south haven is a pretty sleepy place, and unless you want to get stoned/drunk/inebriated, you have to do what you can for fun. well, before we went to the carnival, we stopped by big boy to grab some dessert. in classic big boy fashion, they messed up our order; we ate for free. score. armed with a bellyful of free french silk pie, i joined dave on the tilt-a-whirl. i love those damn tilt-a-whirls; i could ride them every day and not tire of their circular ecstacy. then we decided to ride this spider ride, and i got sick to my stomach. i began to wave my arms while yelling, "ooh, ooh! stop! i'm going to puke! ooh! i'm going to vomit! oh no let me off now now now!"

eventually, the half-stoned spider ride operator stopped and let me off. thank god. dave and i decided to limit ourselves to the gaming aspect of the carnival. there was a booth with some stupid ring toss game. but the prize you could win was a BUNNY! a CUTE bunny! now, i felt really bad for those poor carnie bunnies. so i decided that i would liberate the bunnies by winning them and then setting them free!

i bought my tickets and tried to toss the rings properly, but i couldn't win. so i tried again. and again. three dollars later, i hadn't won any bunnies, and i was almost out of money. i asked the carnival worker if i could just have a bunny since i had tried so hard, but he wouldn't let me. my bunny liberation plan was foiled! the bunnies twitched their little pink noses at me as if to say, "oh, annie! you failed us! we wanted to be free, to hop hop hop all over, but now it's just on to the next crappy carnival town!"

i felt awful. i couldn't even liberate bunnies. i am a bunny-freeing failure.

(ps) yesterday i was not very pleasant, non? i'm not today, either. it's facade time! ha. i wish i were home with my parents. i miss coloring eggs and smushing my face up when my mom brings out the easter ham. i'm finding that adulthood can be very lonely. and i miss my kitty. but soon this holiday will be over, and then i'll just feel normal-lonely, instead of this magnified easter version of loneliness. yay!